remember we almost had it all.

so it was the night of the span alumni gathering. was pretty excited -- got my costumes ready. my friends were pretty keen too..
it went well

in a bid to recapture a little of the magic it was like, to be a wide eye student.. i literally took a drive back in memory lane. the houses were still there.. the places were still there.. the memories of the feelings were still there.
they didn't come back strong. rather.. in bits and pieces.. as if forcing you to connect the dots.

Time came along and wield its power.

but it is strangely distant. how does remembering the past makes one
maybe you feel ur priorities were wrong in the past. maybe u're much happier now.

then i didn't understnad the suffering, and was unwilling to admit to it. with jingyi -- we talked about the future.. but now


it's all things past. still the same dreams but no longer can afford to live them out loud. they say repressed dreams come back fiercer, stronger.
perhaps at some point in life we're no longer allowed to feel. this is one of those times.